Assalamualaikum
Firstly, I'm sorry for the title above, it sounds weird, my recent everything. Actually I want to tell everything that I feel need to state here. It was quiet long time I haven't update my blog. I love to write, to type, to make a story and being my previous me again.. So here I am to do what I used to do.
I am very surprise that science stream is just extremely challenging. Now it's no surprise anymore when I find the high level questions which really test my ability to think, to imagine, to write because I have experienced for a year in pure science stream..and I found I dont have much ability in pure science, I'm weak, I'm not good, to say that I'm average, I think it's not.
Everytime back from school, I feel so stress, so dizzy, and that's why I just let my tears falling down, I feel so burden when my school now having very straight and strict rules. What can I do anymore but merely obey all the rules. My pressure is gainning averyday due to extra classes. I back home very late and then at night I feel so sleepy to complete my homework. Sometimes I push myself to finish it all until I go to bed late at midnight, even I ever sleep like 1:00 a.m, 2:00 a.m and even more worse I sleep at 3:00 a.m.. It almost everyday my daily schedule is arranged so.
Sometimes I have no time to do my duty as daughter. Poor my parents, they are old but I usually can't help them whenever they need to. I feel so guilty. Please, I want to finish my high school and I want to go for work. I want to collect money so that I can take both motorcycle and car's license. It's not because I dont want to study anymore, but it's because to help my family especially my parents. both my mum and dad are old already. I'm the last daughter, so I need to do my best. But I need to manage myself neatly...it's kind of challenging, yes it's very challenging!
Another else, I need to go hospital to know whether I have any disease. whenever I'm at school either at home, my head feel so pain, it's not a spinning, it's a pain, I feel pain in my brain. Other else my body always shivering, mym mum said it's because I eat late and do not eat on right time. NO. IT'S NOT. My shivered body is because it comes with sudden any time and where ever I am even what situation and conditions I face with. It's really weird of myself. That's why I want to go hospital to make some check-up. and I want to know whether I am normal or not..I dont know why...I feel a bit weird of myself either my physical or mental. It's really weird of me..
I want to be how I used to be. AGAIN. easier say than do. But I need to take one step at a time. Indeed, life is full of big challenges, it's never easy, and never comfortable. but it's only way to make me improve in some aspect of live.
Firstly, I'm sorry for the title above, it sounds weird, my recent everything. Actually I want to tell everything that I feel need to state here. It was quiet long time I haven't update my blog. I love to write, to type, to make a story and being my previous me again.. So here I am to do what I used to do.
I am very surprise that science stream is just extremely challenging. Now it's no surprise anymore when I find the high level questions which really test my ability to think, to imagine, to write because I have experienced for a year in pure science stream..and I found I dont have much ability in pure science, I'm weak, I'm not good, to say that I'm average, I think it's not.
Everytime back from school, I feel so stress, so dizzy, and that's why I just let my tears falling down, I feel so burden when my school now having very straight and strict rules. What can I do anymore but merely obey all the rules. My pressure is gainning averyday due to extra classes. I back home very late and then at night I feel so sleepy to complete my homework. Sometimes I push myself to finish it all until I go to bed late at midnight, even I ever sleep like 1:00 a.m, 2:00 a.m and even more worse I sleep at 3:00 a.m.. It almost everyday my daily schedule is arranged so.
Sometimes I have no time to do my duty as daughter. Poor my parents, they are old but I usually can't help them whenever they need to. I feel so guilty. Please, I want to finish my high school and I want to go for work. I want to collect money so that I can take both motorcycle and car's license. It's not because I dont want to study anymore, but it's because to help my family especially my parents. both my mum and dad are old already. I'm the last daughter, so I need to do my best. But I need to manage myself neatly...it's kind of challenging, yes it's very challenging!
Another else, I need to go hospital to know whether I have any disease. whenever I'm at school either at home, my head feel so pain, it's not a spinning, it's a pain, I feel pain in my brain. Other else my body always shivering, mym mum said it's because I eat late and do not eat on right time. NO. IT'S NOT. My shivered body is because it comes with sudden any time and where ever I am even what situation and conditions I face with. It's really weird of myself. That's why I want to go hospital to make some check-up. and I want to know whether I am normal or not..I dont know why...I feel a bit weird of myself either my physical or mental. It's really weird of me..
I want to be how I used to be. AGAIN. easier say than do. But I need to take one step at a time. Indeed, life is full of big challenges, it's never easy, and never comfortable. but it's only way to make me improve in some aspect of live.
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